Late Night Pointless Thoughts.

 I apologize in advance, and I do need your sympathy. 

Been thinking a lot lately. Well I use my brain everyday but. I've been thinking about something quite serious. I miss my junior high school friends. But then again, do they miss me? I can clearly say that I am not happy, you can tell by what I am trying to tell you. Either I changed or the society change? I cannot seem to figure that out. The over thoughts in my head are whirling up in desire to be over thought. Nothing that comes out from my brain make sense anymore. I miss those who I could call my best friends. But meeting them never seem to make it up. I miss the moments I spent with them. I could recall every thing in my head and then you could see it crying. I miss being happy around them, you know what I'm saying. I dunno I just, maybe they think I forgot all about them but, it still recalls every time the word "you have no best friends" keeps haunting me. People think I don't care cause I don't show it. Maybe because I never learnt that to have a best friend, you have to be a best friend. (Yet I'm nowhere near that phase now). In elementary school best friends keep coming up to me, and I didn't need to put an effort on it. Now that I'm in High School now things has changed. 

This post came out really depressing actually. Sorry about that. 

I just haven't found myself in High School just yet. But then again I'm only 2 days away from Senior Year. Good luck self.

Harry Potter update: I just finished the book Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (Whoah some sirius stuff written there) yesterday and now I'm about to start Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire but. There's no but. I'm going to continue it no matter what. But maybe tomorrow. 

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2148.25 miles away from home.

Author's Note: (Before you read this, you might want to read this and this first) 

Australia 2012.

Have you ever had the feeling of missing something and you realize you can't get it back? Somehow I feel that way about my experiences with my friends to Australia.... I miss Australia, but if I come back and pay a visit, it will never feel the same. So my heart is left alone by the feeling of missing those moments.... You may think I'm overreacting about this, and I don't usually miss something so much but now I miss Australia.. I miss the kids in EPIC who were adorable and super friendly. I remember the first day of school and everybody had to introduced ourselves and Ina and I sang infront of the class, she sang Superbass by Nicki Minaj and I sang What Makes You Beautiful by (the one and only, oh you know it) One Direction. That is why people know me as a directioner and they said that I was a great singer (thank you though ;) I know we still can communicate from facebook but it's just not the same. 

Some girls wrote on my journal so that made me miss them every time I open my journal. They wrote something sweet like "You're a nice friend, it's so great to have you in our class" and something cheesy like "I'll miss you, please don't forget me". I also miss my hostfam (they call it that), Ms. Sonya and her daughter Ferdos. Also Ms. Rayan (because I spend the time mostly at their house too) and her daughters, Sahar and Sofia, oh and her sister too! she's nice. Not to forget the Nachabe's too, I wonder if they still remember me.... They weren't my hostfam but we were close. I seriously can't pick one of the best experience in Aussie because all of them were just EPIC! 

//Fun (out of the topic) fact: I usually listen to music when I'm on the computer, but when I write I have to turn it off to make my brain think clearly and I don't easily forget what I wanna write down.//

It was a balloon kind of day.

A week ago from today I turned 15 in 2013. 2 days ago a friend of mine gave me a tie full of helium balloons! It's amazing cause that was what I always wanted. But sadly my helium balloons didn't last for a day... Massive thank you for the person who gave me the balloons and actually bright up my day! 

This is my art section part of my room. My friend said that my room was very artistic because it's full of random and quirky artsy things. I didn't realized that at first, until I took this picture. I even have a corner named "The Art Corner" because it's full of my arts and craft but it's a little bit messy right now, today is not the best day to take a picture of it. 

The highlight of today: my friends gave me a strawberry cheesecake to celebrate my birthday! Even though my birthday was a week ago. Heaps of love for deva, almira, azka, ghina, dita, naf, nano, putri, hani, farisa, fia, ina, and dio.  Sorry I have no pictures heheh. Even I didn't expect a thing. It was definitely a birthday to remember<3

MAY-OH-MAY

This is pretty much what I'm doing right now.

May.. What a beautiful month it is..
I don't know why. It feels so long. And there's so many birthdays this may.
May 2 : Dita
May 8 : Qoyyum
May 11 : Bunga
May 13 : Marissa
May 16 : Rawa
May 20 : Fauzan (or I call Ojan)
May 27 : My aunt&Cousin
May 31 : Kevin
...and others, I can't remember.

 Actually I made that one in Australia for Dita but I forgot to bring in to every excursion so sorry Dits :b And I still kept it so I gave it to Bunga. 

 This one is for Fauzan. What a good friend am I.. 

And this is for Rawa, I miss her so badly.

I'm completely bored today. Even though I have heaps of things to do! But too lazy. Wait either too lazy or.......yea probably too lazy. But the amazing thing is that I still have time to blog. Cause I'm bored. Lot's of things has been going on in my life. I just finished my exam yesterday, and there's gonna be a placement test tomorrow. Wish me luck. Can't wait till June! Cause June is where the fun starts :)

Yesterday I went out with my friends. Year6 friends. We watched the Man In Black3 and ate at Burger King. We walked around citos and stopped at aksara book store. Apparently.. they sell Cookie Monsters stuff like mug, bag, tumbler, lunch box! Uh I have to take my mom and dad there cause it's muy expensive! It costs like 200.000 IDR. And there's this Eiffel tower jar uh I wanna buy that. Those things are going on my wishlist.

I still haven't figured out a birthday present for my dad. He's turning 50 this June. The golden age. I'm thinking of buying something that says "I love you dad" or "World's greatest dad" But I haven't made my decision yet so..

Anywayyy I'm currently listening to:

Friendship

The fact that today is Friendship Day i want to post about friendships :)

And it's absolutely true! Strangers think i'm quiet. Friends thinks i'm outgoing. But, my best friends knows that i'm completely insane! But they'll still love me for me ♥

I'm not a master about those friendship thingies. I'm just lucky to feel how exciting having bestfriends are. Best friends, what is that? Is it friends from school? Friends from your neighborhood? Your cousins? Well, all i know is that Best Friends are the ones you spend time a lot with. Share secrets a lot with. And just having the time of your life with the person you call "best friend". But, both individual has to admit that they are bestfriends. Otherwise it won't be called best friends. It's just called friends. 

Best Friends could be  anybody. It could be your friends from class, from your neighborhood, from your past, or even present. And being best friends with a good person is like royalty. And you'll be treated like a royal person if your friendship is strong enough to brake a wall or fast enough to run across the sea wooah..

And now about me, i have a weird friendship with my friends now. The ones who i spend time almost like everyday and every moment at school doesn't admits we're best friends. But my friend who admits i'm her  "bestfriend" never spend time everyday 24/7 with me. That's quite weird if you ask me. But i don't mind..

Write again later ♥

In love with the Cookie Monster

I used to be 3-5 years old when i started watching Sesame Street. Sesame Street was my 3rd favorite show besides Caillou and Barney. But, My very
Favorite Character from Sesame Street was............... THE COOKIE MONSTER!!
I think he's very cute :3 And for an add, He's BLUE! My favorite color~
I wish i could watch Sesame Street again. Wait no, that would be bowring for my age. But, Now i know my favorite character in all time = Cookie Monster.

#Fact = The real name of 'The Cookie Monster' is Sid. :O
Now, my twitter background is Cookie Monster, My Y!M display picture is Cookie Monster. Myyyyy Phone wallpaper is Cookie Monster. Oh how i wish i had a Cookie Monster dollie. I had once, but i got bored with it, so i gave it to the less-fortunate kid. Ummm he/she's sooo lucky! I think i'm going to ask my mom to buy some Cookie Monster Souvenirs.
#CurrentCravingFor

 That Cookie Monster T-Shirt looks soo cute. And the Cookie Monster Mug must be very functional for drinking milk and eating cookies at night. And don't forget that Nike Cookie Monster shoes. But those must be hard to get in Indonesia.

PAREE!! WE HAD A BLAST

So like i said, DEFINITIONAL & AKSELERAZEL WENT TO PARE. 

At first, we really really didn't like it there. It was either too hot, too dirty, or it just doesn't feel like home. And yes, Nothing feels better than laying down on my SUPER COMFY bed and doing N.O.T.H.I.N.G. (well except eating, i love eating) 

...and i think some of us weren't comfortable with the home stay and the school a.k.a English Course. Including me, but i went through it anyways. At first, we didn't had a blast, instead we always complain about everything happening around. Yes indeed. The worst part is........ WE HAVE TO SURVIVE STAYING LIKE THAT FOR A WHOLE WEEK. But, the 3/4 last days in Pare, we were having fun, we were used to the situation around. And the best part is.... SOME OF US DIDN'T WANT TO GO HOME YET.

But then, we had a blast staying in Pare-Kediri. Well, some of us. I was kinda sick. Soar throat. Lost my voice. But i'm okay ;)

Okay now about the ✗_✗ emoticon
So the story begins like this....
In Pare, which i've already told you i lost my voice. At the bus, i spoke like a dead fish then i did a weird action using my fingers making an X and putting it upon my glasses like a dead fish in cartoons. ✗_✗
If you don't get it....... YOUR LOSS! 

And....... the best part of Pare is, my class which is Brilliant Class and i don't really like the name, USED MY MAIN MOTTO OF MY LIFE 

"Stay Cool, Be Awesome"

So that's the end of my story in Pare. Thanks for reading :)

I'm in Year 7 going on Year 8

Omg, i can't believe it. In like 3 weeks  i'm gonna be an 8th Grader. Well, if i make it. But i'm very sure i'll make it. And, i can't believe i'm gonna be a senior for the juniors. And they're gonna call me "Kak Amel" Mwahahha.. Okay, that's definitely not important. But, i just like having some kids younger than me. I hope there's not gonna be Seniority like last year.

And about the class. Okay, honestly i love love love exdivel but not the guys, well some. And i hope year 8 some of us will be together again! But its lovely to hangout with others, but i feel like, only exdivel knows my 'real' personality and they're used to it. I asked some of my friends in year 7 about what they actually think about me, and SOME of them said that i was weird, annoying, lazy. But the good side is, they also think i'm Funny. And i'm actually okay with it. Cause, honestly i can be annoying sometimes, i am insanely weird, and i'm like the laziest person on earth. But i can also make somebody laugh :)

And i really wanted to cherish the moment and ask about EVERYBODY'S opinion about me and make it an album but i was too lazy :( I'll save my idea for year 9.
Okay so basically, today was actually the last moment 7E  a.k.a exdivel can be together as a class, but we'll still meet each other. And we got 2 trophies from the classmeetings even though i didn't win anything!

So yeah, i'm in year 7 going on year 8 i'm just enjoying the long *short 3 weekends* holiday! I don't have plans for tomorrow! Urgh! I need something to do!

I miss you... I miss your smile...

See the title *looks up*
That means i'm missing someone. Somebody. Someone special. Okay not someone, somelot. (?) There's not such thing as somelot. Okay, what i'm trying to say is, I miss my 6th grade friends. Like, Khansa, Naura, Suzanna, Marissa, Hakka, Kevin, Lucky, Cherry, Khattlya and so much more. (i didn't mention the kids who's in Soedirman except Khansa cause i kinda miss hanging with her)
I don't know what bang my head but i suddenly sorta miss em like i've never seen them in a million years.
Oh and ma cousin Nida. Long time no see bro! I hope you get good grades on your national exam.

Yesterday, My friend told me that Khansa tweeted that she misses me. But i don't know what she 'really' said, and if she really tweeted it. But my friend said that she said *ugh this is so complicated* she tweeted like she missed me cause now i hang with my new friends. Well, i feel the same thing too. But i don't know what i'm supposed to do. I mean i can hang with everybody in the universe here.

And i was saying. So yeah i miss them so damn much! And i sorta did a mistake here yesterday June 1. I didn't come to my 6th grade teacher's birthday. I kinda signed up for this year9 graduation volunteer guess. And i absolutely forgot about June 1. That was supposed to be special cause i missed the June 1 2010 celebration. And now, i messed up again and theres no way we (6h) are gonna do that again. I feel guilty like a guilty student here. And, 6h class had been the most amazing thing that ever happened to me. And i actually cried when we have to separate. And between you and me, my year7 friends are no fun like 6h. But yeah, i'm gonna stick with it.

And theres some photos i'd like to share with all of you..

Tears :') I miss them so much. 

Bye-bye my Turtels :(

This post is special for my beloved turtles :)


It's not that their dead. No, their a live. Healthy and Enormous. I gave them to my cousin. They had a big pound. And have a maid to clean up the pound. So, why not? But i'll visit them sometimes....

About my turtles, the big one name is Verne. And the medium one name is Val. I bought Verne at a Zoo when i was little. I bought two, but the other one was dead :(  And i used to put them in a cage. But then Verne got bigger. Then my mom made a pound at the front yard. And bought Val and Veans. But, Veans ran away on a big storm. Verne and Val grew up so fast :')  Actually i didn't take care of them very well :(
They ate lots of veggies and meats. Can you believe it? I gave them burger meats and bakso and so much more.

Hmm.. bye-bye my lil dinosaurs..

Oh yeah, shoutout to my friend LUCKY!! It's his Birthday now :) Happy Birthday. Be a dude. Peace out! -_-v